The whole idea of it makes me feel
like I’m coming down with something,
something worse than any stomach ache
or the headaches I get from reading in bad light–
a kind of measles of the spirit,
a mumps of the psyche,
a disfiguring, chicken pox of the soul.
You tell me it is too early to be looking back,
but that is because you have forgotten
the perfect simplicity of being one
and the beautiful complexity introduced by two.
But I can lie on my bed and remember every digit
At four I was an Arabian wizard.
I could make myself invisible
by drinking a glass of milk a certain way.
At seven I was a soldier, at nine a prince.
But now I am mostly at the window
watching the late afternoon light.
Back then it never fell so solemnly
against the side of my tree house,
and my bicycle never leaned against the garage
as it does today,
all the dark blue speed drained out of it.
This is the beginning of sadness, I say to myself,
as I walk through the universe in my sneakers.
It is time to say goodbye to my imaginary friends,
time to turn the first big number.
It seems only yesterday I used to believe
there was nothing under my skin but light.
If you cut me I could shine.
But now when I fall upon the sidewalks of life,
I skin my knees. I bleed.
This poem is about a boy turning 10 and looking back at his life. He thinks his whole childhood is over and that he can’t have fun anymore. He misses all the good times he had when he was a child and he thinks those times are gone. He is losing his innocence and gaining more knowledge about life.
This poem relates to To Kill a Mockingbird because Jem and Scout are also growing up. Even though Scout doesn’t want him to, Jem is becoming more independent. He doesn’t want to hang out with her anymore and wants more time alone. He begins to do more “adult like” things, and Scout doesn’t like it very much. Also, Calpurnia starts calling Jem,
“Mister Jem.”
Scout is also growing up, whether she likes it or not. That is why Aunt Alexandra came to stay with them. She wanted Scout to continue growing up with a “mother figure” in the house. Scout is also loosing her innocence. She is learning more about the world, people and even her father. With the whole case about Tom Robinson, she gets thrust into an environment where people have opinions of her based on her father, and she can’t even understand the crime. In conclusion, this poem about growing up, relates to To Kill a Mockingbird, because just like the boy, Scout and Jem are growing up and losing their innocence.